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InI walked into the world famous Castro District of San Francisco as a disaffected young man of almost nineteen years of age. I had grown up bullied and lonely, and I was looking to finally belong.
Almost since I was a child nearing adolescence, the other boys at school instinctively rejected me.
While they made the decisive testosterone fueled jump to more masculine pursuits, such as aggressive schoolyard play and sports, I was timid and unsure. While their voices deepened and sounded increasingly confident, mine remained high-pitched but strangely muted.
While they grew taller and filled-out, I just became thinner and ganglier. The pre-macho boys were typically the best at playing kick-ball and inevitably turn out to be recess and PE team captains. Focusing on my embarrassing apparent lack of skill, they were always quick to ridicule and loudly point out my utter worthlessness.
No one ever wanted me on their team. After even the smaller girls got picked, I was always the default last man standing. There were a few other unathletic boys in my class, either overweight or exceedingly short, who also got similarly passed-over.
But they could turn rejection into an advantage through comical self-deprecation or by poking fun at me or someone else. I tended to take everything to heart. I froze at the merest slight.
The often cruel unthinking banter of boys seemed deliberately vicious. Yet, the more they rejected and taunted me, the more I wanted to belong. My childhood fantasies began to center around a benevolent superhero who would adopt me as his sidekick.
When I arrived in San Francisco, I was still tall, thin, and uncoordinated, but I quickly discovered that men wanted to be with me. Here, a boyish stick frame was a distinct advantage.
That first night, as I crept into my first gay bar, I was the same insecure and desperately shy kid. My only experience with the world of male-on-male sexuality was through watching gay porn.
And, in those images I was fascinated. There was a fundamental order and a ritual to everything portrayed: The mature and supremely masculine always ushered into manhood the fresh-faced and less physically impressive youthful rookies.
From porn, I sort of knew what to expect; I had seen such ominous similarly titled films like: And at the near height of the AIDS crisis, like male youths in tribal cultures, who had to endure some sort of physical torment or trial in order to join the community of men, I was willing to suffer anything in the process; even to die.
With my back to the crowded dance floor, I joined a scattered line of men at the bar. The boy no one wanted on his team became the near favorite. Unlike during our lost childhood, there were men willing to coach and guide us. I looked to my left and to my right and met the cold hard stares of a few intense looking guys.
Some gave off a knowing half smile. I glanced down at my drink. When I looked up they were still watching. A man in a tight thin t-shirt that showed off his pecs like Adam West suddenly asked me to dance.Data backs up the notion that many Americans are "skinny fat" and "healthy obese" — their body fat percentage tells a different story than their B.M.I.
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